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Lauded for her "quietly chilling sense of suspense,"* Lydia
Joyce delves into the shadows of Victorian England and beyond as a newly
wed couple tests the limits of their loves...and of their hidden language.
Fern and Colin Radcliffe had a conventional courtship and expected a
conventional marriage. But Fern's wedding night leaves her
shaken — and reborn. Driven by a desire to control her own
destiny, she strikes out at her new husband in a passionate assertion of
independence. In doing so, she awakens a secret craving in the
recently bound couple — an exquisite erotic delight that ignites their
love and creates an insatiable hunger for more. To encourage this new,
forbidden love, they spend their honeymoon alone at Colin's isolated
estate — the perfect setting to explore a world of pain, pleasure, and
power. But their exploration is interrupted by a devastating secret
from Colin's past — a secret that threatens their future together...and
their very lives. Read an
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PROLOGUE
“Come back to bed.” Emma’s sleepy voice emerged from the pile of twisted blankets. “You have hours yet before the wedding.”
Colin cast a glance over his shoulder as he gave his necktie a last quick tug into place. Morning light poured through the window, puddling across the bed to halo Emma’s cherubic face amidst its clouds of white linen. Her lower lip protruded slightly, an artificial expression that should have looked ludicrous on a woman of thirty-five, but Colin doubted that Emma had ever in her life looked anything but exactly as she intended. Flirting, dancing, cajoling — even during lovemaking, she kept her face turned toward the most flattering angle, her expression intense but unmarred by any unaesthetic contortion.
Predictable, cultured, and undemanding, she was exactly what Colin had always wanted in a mistress. It was a pity their pleasant affair would be interrupted by his wedding so soon.
Colin shrugged at his reflection. “I have yet to dress and shave and be jocularly ridiculed by my brothers, and I am also expecting some important correspondence from my solicitor. I know how these events go; as dreary as they are, somehow there never is as much time as one needs to prepare.”
“It would be so much simpler if marriage were settled without all this unseemly to-do, parading about as if the bride and groom had single-handedly invented the institution. A few documents passed between solicitors, the appropriate signature on the appropriate blank.” Emma sighed.
Colin chuckled. “Mon ange, you were born a cynic.” He squared his shoulders and straightened his gray morning coat before crossing the room to her bedside. Emma extended round, white arms to pull him to meet her upturned face — not so carelessly that she mussed his suit — and kissed him with a faultless balance of passion and decorum.
“I suppose this is good-bye,” she said when they separated. Her bottom lip, kiss-swollen and still jutting out slightly, began to tremble.
“For a few months, at least,” Colin agreed easily.
The lip stopped trembling. “For at least half a year, I should hope. It isn’t decent that a man should hurry too quickly from a wife’s bed.”
“Nor a woman from her husband’s?” Colin returned coolly.
Emma pulled a face delicately. “I produced Algy’s heir and a spare before I took my first lover. Now we live our lives, discreet and discrete — ” her smile indicated the wordplay — “and well satisfied. I would wish you better, if I thought any better were possible upon this mortal coil.”
Colin laughed again. “We shall see, I suppose.” It wasn’t as if he had any great aversion to marriage nor any great expectations going into it, really. He assumed that it would sort itself out like his life always had. Eton, Oxford, the usual social clubs in London and hunt clubs in the country — his life had always fallen into place without a single conscious effort on his part. He had no reason to think that his marriage would be any different.
He had decided last year that it was an appropriate time for him to wed. As the heir to a viscountcy, he needed a son before he grew too old, and his cordial if distant relationship with his parents assured the stipend needed for an appropriate match. The debutantes that year were as callow and self-centered as they ever were, but this discovery scarcely put him off; after all, self-centeredness merely meant that a woman would spend more time thinking about herself than harrying him. All he desired was an accomplished hostess with a certain warmth and physical charm, traits that abounded among the daughters of his set. So when he found himself spending more and more time at Fern Ashcroft's side, as much by chance as by design, he rapidly made the socially required hints, and upon receiving the appropriate replies, he approached her father and requested her hand.
Colin had heard other young men of his set speaking in agonized voices of love and desire — the objects of which were, often enough, neither their wives in fact or in potentia. But he did not seek such a match, either with Fern or any other woman. He had never experienced the heights or depths of a grande passion, nor did he think it within his capacity to do so, nor even to miss such a disruptive and messy experience.
His only regret, and that a faint one, was that the engagement coincided with his discovery of the undemanding and ever-welcoming Emma Mortimer. But the matter of a mistress, however pleasant, was no reason to change the direction of his life, which had only one other shadow on the horizon — that of the matter of Wrexmere Manor, which his solicitor's letter should soon clear up.
Colin looked down at Emma and brushed a golden curl that had fallen across her forehead back to join the rest of the artfully tumbled mass. “Let's not put a time requirement to fidelity. It sounds so calculating, and you know I never calculate. Instead, I will merely say — good-bye, for now.”
“I should cry, you know,” Emma said, her cornflower blue eyes growing round and wet even as she spoke.
He raised one eyebrow. “Please don’t. At least, not unless you intend upon pining after me until I return; if you do, I could hardly deny you the right to weep, however inconvenient. But you shall make me most abominably late if I must stay to comfort you.”
Emma laughed, the dampness transforming into a merry glimmer. “Oh, you naughty thing! You know me too well. I’ve tried to pine before, but I simply haven’t the constitution. Run along, then. I shall be here when you return, but whether or not there will still be a place for you, I can make no promises!” She paused, and for an instant, Colin saw a shadow of some real emotion in her eyes. Was it fear? "You're staying in Clifton Terrace, aren't you?" she asked.
"Yes," he replied cautiously.
She smiled brightly, and the shadow was gone. "Well, I shall hope to not see you back in my bedroom for a few years, at least!"
“Fair enough,” Colin replied, and he turned away to face his wedding day and his bride.
CHAPTER ONE
The aisle stretched out interminably in front of Fern, lined with familiar faces and their smothering gazes. Distantly, she knew this should be the happiest day of her life, when her girlish dreams would finally be realized and she would emerge into womanhood on the arm of her new husband — the husband she had scarcely dared believe had chosen her. But she could muster no joy, and her smile felt more like a rictus. The heir of a viscount. It had seemed impossible that he had wanted her, impossible that she could refuse, and since Fern had never been one to attempt the impossible or even the indecorous, she had accepted. Now a stranger stood waiting for her at the end of the carpet, and the indifference of his gaze chilled her soul.
Fern’s father stepped forward, and she found herself borne along in the wake of the bridesmaids and her flower-strewing nieces. The organ blast trembled in the vaulted ceiling, the vast space muddying the sound until it arrived as one great crash in her ears, and the scents of roses and toilet water crowded thick, hot, and cloying around her.
She wanted to press a hand to her roiling stomach. Instead, she tightened her grip on her bouquet and continued to smile for the staring faces, white as the orange blossoms that wilted in her grasp, and for the gray rapier figure that waited at the other end of the carpet.
Then she was there, beside him, standing unsupported, and the minister was speaking far too fast, the words tumbling together in her head until she could only catch fragments, like the falling shards of a stained glass window...
Dearly beloved...a remedy against sin...wilt thou have this woman...this man...till death us do part...
The man next to her was too cold, so gray and adamantine that she might break against him just as the pieces of the minister's words broke in her ears. Fern's stomach lurched again.
“Thereto I plight thee my troth.” It was her own voice, and she felt it buzzing up her throat, but under what power, she could not say.
Then her bouquet was taken away, and her hand enfolded in a broader one, cool and strong through kid gloves, a hand that seemed to fill her world...and upon her finger, it slid a ring.
Kneeling, standing, kneeling, standing. Fern wanted to shout, to clap her hands over her ears, to do something to stop the torrent of words that bore her helplessly along.
And then it was over.
The clash of the organ, the clang of bells, and they flew down the aisle toward the doors that spilled light like the gates of heaven into the hot cavern of the church.
The Honourable Mr. and Mrs. Colin Barton Jonathan Radcliffe.
Oh, God, what have I done?
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Introduction
This page contains spoilers! Don't read unless you've already read the
book.
I wanted to make this book into a pseudo-Gothic, playing off the
traditions of the sub-genre while striking out in a new direction. For
that reason, I broke one major convention from the start by having an
older, wiser, more experienced heroine rather than the innocent ingénue
that is more typical. That more than anything shaped the course of the
book, along with the theme "there is no monster." In a way, the
monster-less-ness of my Gothic disappoints the traditional forms, but I
use the familiarity of the Gothic to ground the story rather than guide
it, so I'm careful not to set up expectations that are other than what the
story delivers.
The Letter
"My dear lady Victoria" - This address is insultingly intimate
to write to a woman who is not one's close family friend or acknowledged
lover. It sets the mocking tone for the rest of the letter.
"I am, Your faithful servant, &cetera," - This is the way
letters were often closed, and the "I am" indicates that it's
the first time the writer has sent a letter to the recipient. A more
formal and politer version could have replaced the "&cetera"
with more protestations of amity, but this style was already falling out
of favor as a little too archaic and elaborate.
Victoria's name was already set when I started this manuscript — it came
from my first Victorian set romance, currently being rewritten. Byron's I
chose after Lord Byron for several reasons. First, I knew from the start
they my duke would have a wild reputation — and well deserved. Also, the
books was to be a play off the traditional Gothic, which made me think of
Mary Shelley's Frankenstein, and Mary Shelley ran with the wild crowd that
included Lord Byron.
Chapter One
The idea for the start of this chapter — the sexually charged
conversation — came from a number of romance books that I'd read recently
and seemed particularly suited to this type of book. Getting it exactly
how I wanted it took quite a bit of tweaking, though! I start with two
characters who have unlikable aspects instead of the usual Fake Rake and
Perky Miss that populate most romance Gothics today. That makes the whole
situation much more delicate.
p. 3 Raeburn Court - Raeburn Court has no "real world"
model. I didn't like the traditional castle-ish construction so common in
Gothics, so instead, I made it a mishmash of styles from many periods,
which would give it a suitable spookiness without following the cliché
too closely.
p. 5 "His grace is expecting thoo at the house, my lady." -
While I didn't use true eye-dialect for my Yorkshire natives in this book,
picking which words to represent faithfully and which grammatical
structures to reproduce proved to be a challenge in itself! This is the
balance I finally found between authenticity and readability. I know it
isn't entirely accurate — far, far from it, in fact — but I didn't want to
bewilder my readers when this speech is such a small part of the book. I
apologize now to anyone who wanted to see absolute accuracy here, but my
attempts at it caused such screams of frustration that I eventually
settled on mostly inaccurate instead. Please, don't lynch me. I'm too
young to die.
p. 5 limestone hills - Luck. Dumb luck. I was pretty sure that the
Yorkshire dales were limestone, but I forgot to look it up to check. I
realized this in the galley stage, but fortunately, I was right.
p. 9 "Corn Laws, Rotten Boroughs, Reform Bills" - This refers to
some of the most controversial legislature of the Victorian age. Mrs.
Peasebody dislikes government interference as a rule, and she thinks that
politics ought to be the exclusive realm of the nobles and gentry — who, of
course, should let her continue to live her life as she always has!
p. 10 Mrs. Peasebody - This name just seemed good for a busybody of a
housekeeper. In an amusing coincidence, it turns out that one of my
critique partners had a housekeeper with a very similar name, Mrs. Pease,
in her book Pretty Persuasion.
p. 12 "He took a swallow of his scotch" - In homage to his
Scottish border origins, Byron drinks scotch rather than brandy.
p. 16 "Better than a pound of flesh, I'll strip a ton from his
pride." - This is an allusion to Merchant of Venice. Byron is casting
himself in the role of Shylock, the surprisingly sympathetic villain of
the play. Earlier, there is a biblical reference — "unto the seventh
generation." There, less humbly, Byron casts himself in the role of
God!
p. 16 "Paris or Naples or Vevey" - Vevey was a Swiss lake resort
town of great popularity during this time. It is reference in a short
story by Henry James that plays off social themes, and it's also where
Mary Shelley had her dream that became the book Frankenstein.
Chapter Two
p. 26 The language was indirect enough to obscure the exact nature of the
bargain... - I have no idea what the contract actually says, so don't ask.
Really.
p. 28 This scene is a huge Gothic moment in the novel, so it had to be
handled carefully to avoid being a repetition of all the hundreds of
novels that came before. The tapestry is shamelessly stolen from The Hunt
For the Unicorn, a series of French tapestries now in a museum.
p. 30 The blank wall was, when I began to write it, nothing more than
that, but by the time I'd finished, I realized that it was the key to the
entire novel, and it guided the rest. The tapestry with nothing behind it,
the terrible secret that isn't, the monster that doesn't exist.
Chapter Three
p. 36 It wasn't until Victoria and Byron started talking that I realized
how important the ghosts of the past of Raeburn Court were to this novel.
Byron's great-uncle, Annie's mother, and their stories quickly became a
layer to the story I didn't expect.
p. 37 Dowager House - A lot of novels speak of Dower Houses, fewer of
Dowager Houses. They are, by the 19th century, essentially the same thing.
Chapter Four
Sex, sex, sex This was actually an experiment to see how well I could
write without some huge external plot (which romance authors often use as
crutches) and with a lot of sex (which sells really, really well right now
and which works for my voice). No matter how sexy my books are, they'll
never be pornography. In pornography, without the sex, there is no point
to the story. In my books, without the stories, there is no point to the
sex. To keep up the tone of the novel, I made up the tower room of
debauchery, which belonged to the previous duke. There is a sensible
reason for choosing it. Except for the Henry Suite and Unicorn Room, it's
the only room suitable for such activities that's habitable at this point.
There is no way Byron would let Victoria into his private quarters at this
point, and he certainly doesn't want to come to her, so the tower room it
is.
p. 57 but I always repent - This is from a joking rejoinder that I say
sometimes when asked something similar. She's not very joking at this
moment, though!
Chapter Five
p. 76 beef pie - I admit it. I hate English food. This isn't what the
aristocracy normally dined upon, but there was such a great potential for
horridness that I could not pass it up. The cook is dreadful, and she will
be gently retired between the last chapter and the epilogue.
p. 77 Red didn't do the color justice - I have no idea where this came
from. Slightly humorous moments kept slipping into this novel, and when
they worked, I let them. It took a lot of balancing to keep the tone and
humanity both working through moments like this.
Chapter Six
p. 87 Webb - I am an architecture freak. *g* Philip Speakman Webb was part
of the aesthetic movement in architecture that eventually birthed the Arts
and Crafts style. In its early forms, it was simple and medievalist,
though it had a number of characteristics that any Craftsman enthusiast
would immediately recognize and appreciate. I wanted something that worked
for Byron and spoke of who he was, and this movement really spoke to me.
p. 92 I admit it. I like to do stupid things on rainy days, too. *g* I
just like rain!
p. 97 "Yer were gone such a time!" - Okay, so why did the
housekeeper suddenly say "yer" instead of "thoo"?
"Thoo" is singular, and "yer" is plural! Just like
"thou" and "you" in Old and Middle English, before it
became Frenchified into formal/informal. I was tempted just to leave it
all as "thoo" so as not to confuse readers, but then I *knew*
I'd get lynched.
Chapter Eight
This chapter and the next caused me fits. I can't tell you the number of
times I rewrote it before I was happy. Anyhow, the first scene in this
chapter was never here until the line edits stage. I'm surprised at how
well it clicked given how little editing I've done on it! Large parts of
it were lifted from another scene, but it came together well.
Chapter Nine
The peach crumble wasn't planned — really. I decided that I'd been giving
them enough terrible food that they deserved something good, and, well,
this is what happened.
p. 138 Victoria drools in her sleep sometimes. I realized it when I was
writing an earlier incarnation of the scene, but it was right, so it
stayed. Somehow, it just fits her.
Chapter Ten
p. 142 I had no idea what was going to happen to Victoria on this walk,
and I knew nothing about Annie's past until Mrs. Peasebody started telling
me. But it worked. So it stayed, and Annie grew to become more than just a
necessary piece of furniture for the story.
p. 150 Rook Keep - This place is the key to their week, in a way, and so
it exerts a kind of psychological draw upon Victoria. There are symbols in
it for Victoria and Byron, both, and each sees the other in it — the things
that they fear most and love best.
Chapter Eleven
p. 153 Temple of Flora - This isn't one of the priceless incunabula (books
printed before 1501). This is a Georgian regency-era book of flowers with
lots of pretty plates that I like. I just like the pictures, so I decided
to include it. It probably doesn't look a thing like the book he's
searching for.
p. 155 quarto-sized - Sheets of paper to be made into books once came in
standard sizes. The number of times a piece of paper was folded before it
was bound gave the end product its size. One fold into four leaves
produced a folio, two folds into four leaves produced a quarto, three
folds into eight leaves produces an octavo. It goes to 16 and 32 sheets,
but those were very small books! A quarto was a bit larger than a normal
modern hardback, and it was generally used for things less important, say,
than great religious or extremely valued literary works but more important
that ephemeral popular fiction. There. Far more than you ever wanted to
know.
p. 161 the ladder tipped up the front of her dress - A pet peeve of mine
is historicals in which the characters wear period clothes yet don't
actually wear them, if that makes any sense. There are descriptions of
clothing, but the characters never move in the clothes described. It's
hard to keep in mind as a writer, but it adds so much when you get it
right!
Chapter Twelve
p. 165 ridgepole hooks - Hooks on the end of ropes were sometimes used to
pull down burning building so the didn't do any harm to the surrounding
buildings.
p. 173 to melt the wax - Though the penny post was well established, it
would be a number of years before self-gummed envelopes would become
available.
Chapter Thirteen
p. 177 was that a hint of pork drippings? - I loathe English cookery.
There are few things more horrible. And I'm afraid by opinions show!
p. 183 This is the scene that made my agent decide she wanted to represent
me even though she'd only read one other chapter.
Chapter Fourteen
p. 195 In the first draft, I did not realize Victoria's wildness until
this scene. It caused a lot of revising! Half a scene got caught here and
in the next chapter. I loved being able to write about riding and
horses — since I ride, I know how to describe horse body language and
riding in a vivid and realistic way.
Chapter Fifteen
p. 205 Byron and Victoria are very much people of their time with their
social outlooks and concerns. The doom of the nobility was just then
becoming clear, but many, like Byron, kept themselves wealthy through
increasing the amount of real estate they owned and by renting out their
lands to industrialists.
p. 208 Lake Poets - The Lake Poets Wordsworth, Coleridge, and the rest)
were major forces in the Romantic Movement and loved Yorkshire and the
Lake District — wild moors and abandoned heaths over the bucolic farmlands
that had been preferred until that point. "Lake Poets" was a
demeaning name coined by their critics.
p. 215 This was a scary scene to write since so much of the book hung upon
it!
Chapter Sixteen
p. 217 I loved writing this scene! Finally, ACTION! I was very confident
at action scenes — I knew I was good at them — and so writing this was like
stepping into a pair of well-worn slippers.
p. 222 he could feel it searing his cheeks - Byron has erythropoietic
protoporphyria, which is very painful and leaves some scars but does not
eat away at soft tissue the way erythropoietic porphyria does. It also
gets quite a bit better typically when a person is in his mid-30s. Byron's
just slightly late.
Chapter Seventeen
p. 228 I really enjoy writing delusional scenes, mostly because it's such
a challenge. *g* This was fun! I did rewrite it a number of times, but all
the pieces worked.
p. 228 beef tea - Think beef broth, the 19th-century equivalent to chicken
noodle soup.
Chapter Eighteen
p. 244 "Did they love each other?" - A major theme of this book
are human relationships — those of the old duke versus the new one, of
brother-sister, mother-daughter, friends, and lovers — and not just how
they are ideally but all the different, less usual forms they take between
people.
Chapter Nineteen
p. 250 his fingers came away damp - I didn't know this was going to
happen, but when it did, it felt so right! The revelatory scene that came
after is one of the ones I'm most pleased with in the entire book.
Chapter Twenty
Here is the chapter where the Beauty and the Beast theme clearly overtakes
the traditional Gothic theme. It is a quiet sort of echo of the fairy
tale. I wasn't even conscious of it at first. And yet here is our heroine,
who almost loves the Beast and is going away for the sake of her family...
Chapter Twenty-One
p. 280 "thrown into the Thames" - a tragically frequent — almost
routine — end for unwanted bastard infants in Victorian London.
Chapter Twenty-Two
The timeline here was tricky, but I eventually ironed it out! I had to
rewrite entirely it because I'd written the end when I was only halfway
through the book, and it didn't quite fit who Byron and Victoria had
become.
Epilogue
One reader mentioned that the situation her is perhaps unique to romance.
Maybe it is. I was tired of the mommy-and-daddy epilogues (as if babies
were proof of love!), and so I wanted to do something else. Read MUSIC OF
THE NIGHT to see how this turns out!
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